"your beliefs don't make you a better person, your behavior does"

"omg aisha is a christian? no wonder lah, from her behavior and all!"

isn't it weird that the sentence above can be seen in two different ways?

1. i do good stuff, so people are not surprised to find out i am a christian - i live my beliefs.
2. i do bad stuff, so people are not surprised to find out i'm a christian - i am a hypocrite like the rest.

i think it's important, as christians, to measure yourself periodically by how other people see you. sure sure, you're the salt and light, children of God, etc etc, what other people say about you shouldn't matter, etc. but, if your behavior doesn't reflect the light of what you believe in, what's the use of your identity?

sorry. i know i suck as a person sometimes. but i'm trying. first step: to admit your faults. there. what's the next step?