Monday, November 21, 2011

change is the only constant

I secretly think I am having a mid-life crisis at 20. There is nothing more scary than the prospect of a future you can already expect to be mediocre.

"Change is the only constant." I think this has something to do with the fact that change has been so ingrained in my life that come what may I expect change to be there. It's a continuous movement to the beat that changes every now and then and it's always telling me to go, to move, to never stay static and to never stop.

Stillness in movement scares me...I have been grappling with the idea of a career since I started. There is no glory in doing something good when you could be doing something great. But what if there's a reason you're at where you are at this point in time? What if there is something greater that lies in this small beginning? After all, faith as tiny as a mustard seed transforms the geographical landscape of a location.

When I've been expecting change all my growing up life and I'm given something that has no change, I am thrown to the deep end.

Dear Lord. Please know my anxious thoughts and rein them in to you. Amen.
"You will be pioneers. In whatever situation and problems or challenges you may encounter, you will be the pioneers,"